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I’d like to begin by acknowledging the Traditional Owners of the land on which we meet today. I would also like to pay my respects to Elders past, present and emerging.
Disclaimer: As usual, what is written below is my own personal opinion, and may vary from yours. It doesn’t mean to say that either is correct or incorrect, that’s what makes us all Humans.
“I’M A WORTHY,SUCCESSFUL, VALUED WINNER, WHO DESERVES TO LIVE A HAPPY, HEALTHY, SAFE, REWARDING, STREE FREE LIFE.”
TW: I mention certain traumatic events, if anyone is triggered by anything I mention, I am sincerely and truly sorry.
In 1971, when I was 6 years young, my trauma started.
An older male relative, took advantage of me, and began molesting me.
I will not go into details, mainly because most of what happened is no longer accessible by my conscious memory.
This molestation continued until I was 14.
Every time there was a family gathering, well, this side of the family, I would do everything I could to not attend, however, was ordered too.
As the other children were males, I was forced to participate in the male dominated activities.
This relative would always find a way for him and I to be alone and for him to molest me.
Because of this molestation, I became withdrawn, shy, ashamed and anxious, but above all, untrusting of most people.
I was so ashamed, as males were not the victims, only females, well that’s what I was told growing up. I was unable to tell the one person who I should have trusted the most in the world: The Super Groovilious, Claire Baire.
Honestly, I feel this is a reason why she ended things between us, and I don’t blame her, because if I couldn’t trust her then, what hope was there if we stayed together. However, in time, I may have come clean with her.
Many people will say, childhood victims will grow up to inflict the same or worse pain on others.
Granted, it happens, however, in my case, there is no way in the world I would think about inflicting the same or worse on others.
Honestly, I would prefer to help all victims out, because all need the fullest support available.
In my honest opinion, anyone who takes away the innocence of a child, whether the assailant is under 18 or not, deserves to be strung up by their miniscule downstairs brains.
I repressed these memories for many years.
It was not until late 2018, when “Chris” spread vicious lies about me online.
I was advised by a friend, who believed these lies and spread them too, which lost me many friends.
My nightmares started, whereby I remembered the molestation, however, the assailants face was blank, which puzzled me. I thought the assailant was someone for a long while, based on what happened in 1989.
January 2021, I was verbally abused by passengers in a motor vehicle, which caused me to get anxious and depressed.
Over the next few months, I restarted the nightmares, however, my unconscious mind started releasing memories, and thankfully, the true identity of the assailant.
Unfortunately, this person is no longer alive.
I am still suffering from this trauma, however, thanks to an amazing person at my last job, have now taken the first step in seeking help.
I wish to say to everyone reading this, no matter your age, or gender:
If you have suffered any type of trauma during your life, I highly recommend seeking help.
IT IS STRENGTH TO SEEK HELP, NOT A WEAKNESS.
If more people sought help, from professionals, then the more chance of you remaining alive.
I have considered unaliving myself many times, however, have been stopped by unknown parties.
This may sound weird, but I feel the amazing Claire Baire is still looking after me from beyond the grave.
Exciting Announcement:
I recently completed a course about Job Searching and what types of jobs I’m suited for.
One of the jobs was counselling, which I’m hoping to begin studying in 2023, however, if anyone is interested in wanting to talk about their issues, I offer a 45 minute Zoom call, for $25 AUD each. These are not recorded, however, please think of them as you are talking to an impartial friend.
I will provide suitable links for counsellors in your local region.
Each person who partakes of this offer, will also receive my eNovel bundle.
By me selling the novels then offering the advice, will not be illegal, and the advice given will only be general. However, I have found, when I have talked to others, I’ve felt better.
$1 per sale will be used to help fund my counselling course.
$4 my gender surgery.
Remainder funding the establishment of MEL’S CUSTOMISED CANDLES, in which each who partake, will be eligible to receive a free PCCM/Share.
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