January 9th, 2022 Update: My Mental Health has been bad recently, because of the Cold Shoulder I’m receiving from certain Toxic People currently in my life, who I will be escaping soon.
Disclaimer: As usual, what is written below is my own personal opinion, and may vary from yours. It doesn’t mean to say that either is correct or incorrect, that’s what makes us all Humans.
I’d like to begin by acknowledging the Traditional Owners of the land on which we meet today. I would also like to pay my respects to Elders past, present and emerging.
Most of my life, I have suffered from Anxiety and Depression, although it’s only in the past 10-15 years, I’ve finally sought help.
Everyone suffers from Mental health issues, some very mild, others so bad, it causes suicidal thoughts and attempts.
I have thought about suicide many times and have attempted it too.
For many years, I would be nasty about someone when they committed suicide, because I was told it was the cowards way out.
Honestly, it’s not. It’s the last straw for some, where they felt it was the best option.
This may offend many people, but it is from my own observations:
Many males suffer from Mental Health, but as they perceive themselves as big, strong men, refuse to accept or acknowledge their condition.
Many will turn to violence to release their emotions, which is not good.
If more men acknowledged their Mental Health, and sought treatment, we might have a better society.
When I was still a male, I was the same way, but was forced to accept, I was suffering.
Talking things through with various Mental Health Professionals, I now know where and when my issues began:
When I was 6 years old, an older relative started molesting me. I forgot about this for many years, until a certain person spread vicious lies about me online.
When writing my True Story, I remembered back to when I was viciously assaulted and left to die. I was 16. When found, was less than 2 hours away from death.
When examined by the Doctor, it was found, I was 98% infertile. My Genitalia were squeezed so hard, my parts stopped working correctly.
I honestly feel this contributed to my Trust Issues, Anxiety and Depression, although never knew at the time.
Growing up, I was constantly told: “Men never show their emotions to anyone, as it’s a sign of weakness.” That is a lie, because showing emotions is a sign of strength.
Christmas 2018 was a bad day for me: I stood on the overpass of a major railway line in Melbourne, contemplating whether or not the world was better off without me.
What saved me: My job at the time. I was working in a Call Centre for an agency who was contracted to a Government Department.
Many people without thinking, make assumptions about Transgenders, which causes much distress. This is usually based on others from the past.
I’ve suffered from these assumptions, despite no evidence to back up any claims, I’m constantly told I’m a liar, etc.
These assumptions hurt to the point, where not only does my anxiety go through the roof, but causes my depression to get bad.
Where I reside, we are mere moments from a main road, with many trucks constantly driving, or should I say, Speeding, by each day.
I’ve thought about stepping out on to the roadway many times, but have not, as I know it would cause much disruption, not only to the poor Truck Driver, but the motorists too.
What I do now, stay in my room until those feelings pass.
I also have some close friends who I confide in.
COVID has made things much worse for many people, which is sad and at times tragic.
Please, if you feel your Mental Health is suffering, no matter how mild, seek help.
There are many reasons why we suffer Mental Health Issues:
Tragic Loss:
Violent Assault:
Job Loss:
Relationship Breakup or even a Friendship Breakup:
Financial Stress:
And many more.
Mental Health is just as important as Emotional, Spiritual, and Physical Health.
This is a personal thing about me:
Part of my Mental Health issues have been: Forced to do things I don’t want to do, like going out to socialise with others, getting heavily intoxicated, getting physical with others too.
Because of the molestation and assault, and being Used and Abused, I’m Asexual.
I also make this suggestion: If you are a parent, please make time to talk, but also LISTEN, to your children and allow them the chance to explain how they are feeling. If they admit they feel
Different
Accept it and support them.
I was unable to be open and transparent with my father, because he was not an open minded person.
I Thank You All for reading this, and hope to have educated you too, but also helped if needed.
N.B. There is always help available.
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